This is a piece I wrote a couple years ago, and I've been meaning to make some major changes to it, so I finally decided to get around to it. It's probably not completely done yet, there's still a few things I know I should change, and also I'll probably continue to do some minor fine-tuning still. Anyways, here's where it is for now:
Don’t Tell=====“What’re you talking about?” Cory asks him.
=====“Do you remember what I fucking told you?” Damon hisses, and grabs Cory by his left shoulder.
=====“I….I…” Cory stutters. He tries to pull back from Damon’s grip, but his hand tightens around Cory’s shoulder. It hurts, his nails are digging into it.
=====“I told you not to tell nobody what you saw you little shit!” Damon’s yelling now.
=====“I didn’t!” Cory says, he’s shaking. “I didn’t tell nobody, I swear Damon!”
=====“Oh yeah?” Damon asks, and Cory can see his hand reach into his sweatshirt pocket. It comes back out; a gun’s in it.
“I didn’t tell, I swear, please, I didn’t! I didn’t!” Cory screams, he’s flailing around, trying to escape Damon’s grip.
=====Damon holds the cold barrel of the gun to Cory’s sweat-soaked head. “I told you not to tell, just one damn thing. I told you I’d kill you.”
=====“Damon, please!” Cory pleads.
=====“Damn fool,” Damon says, and he pulls the trigger.
=====Cory wonders why he always has to do this. He’s hunched over under the weight of his backpack, his feet move reluctantly over the cracked and worn sidewalk. He lifts one hand from the strap of his backpack to itch the back of his head; it always itches a few days after he shaves it; when the black stubble is barely visible on his coffee skin. He’s always hated walking alone, he wishes his mom could be there, wishes she could walk by him and hold his hand; wishes she could walk between him and everyone he passed to shield him like she always does when they walk around here.
The old man who’s always on the middle of this sidewalk asks him for some change, lifting his arm sheathed in a torn jacket to raise the old Styrofoam coffee cup in his constantly shaking hand, the few coins in it clanking. “Sorry,” Cory says as he passes him, he doesn’t bother to respond.
=====But it’s not the beggars or the addicts (or both—most the time they’re the same) that bother Cory the most, but the men on almost every street corner in this neighborhood. They stand, or sit on the stoops, wearing loose shirts or jackets and jeans. Even as Cory walks down the block towards the corner at the end he can see a few people pass them, two old black men in threadbare jackets and pants stop to exchange crumpled bills for a few small glass vials: Cory’s seen it enough times to notice them moving between their hands, even though they try to do it discretely.
=====Cory finally comes to the corner, and by the time he gets there both of the old men are already gone; they have what they came for. He walks by the men on the corner—it’s hard to call them men though, two are only a few years older than Cory. One of the younger ones sitting on a stoop says “red caps, ten a piece” as Cory passes, he’ll say it to anyone, young or old, black or white, rich or poor, it doesn’t matter to him. Cory doesn’t open his mouth; he keeps walking on.
=====His mom knows as well as anyone else that she shouldn’t let Cory walk home alone. Cory thinks about when these walks alone started. He can’t remember for sure, but he thinks it’s probably when his dad left, when his mom started having to work late. That’s not when it started he realizes though, Damon used to walk him home. He’d always come pick Cory up at school, Damon’s school was a couple blocks away. It’s been a while since those times though. At least a few months. Now Damon never walks him home, even though their mom thinks he does; Damon told Cory he had to keep telling her so, they both know she doesn’t want Cory walking home alone. Now Damon always comes back a couple hours later than him, probably hanging out with his older high school friends, Cory thinks, doesn’t have time for twelve year olds any more.
=====He misses those walks with Damon. They’d talk about school, mom, anything on their minds. It’s been a while since they’ve talked like that though, Cory’s not sure why. Damon’s been around less, he comes home just a bit before mom does, and he’s always up in his room or out with friends at night. But it’s more than that. He’s more quiet, never talks about school and his teachers and friends at dinner anymore, doesn’t hang out with Cory, watching TV or playing video games or just being there with him like he used to. Sometimes Cory tries to talk to him still, once he asked him about why he comes home late. He yelled, “Mind your own damn business!” and shoved Cory in the shoulder. He never used to shove him like that; Cory hasn’t asked him again since.
It’s as he’s thinking this though, that he hears it: the sickening crack.
=====He turns around, and sees two figures shrouded in black hooded sweatshirts holding metal bats. One of the men from the group on the corner he just passed is lying on the ground, clutching his shoulder. The two that are still standing lunge at the hooded attackers, trying to get the jump on them, but two swings later and they join their fallen companion. The bats rain down on them, blow after blow, dull thuds and loud cracks and blood splattering all over sidewalk and the brick walls of the building by them.
=====“Serves you right for being on our fucking corners, bitch!” one of the standing figures shouts at the fallen bodies, punctuating it by raising the bat over his head and smashing it into one of their backs—Cory thinks he can hear a rib breaking.
=====Cory is about to turn and run when one of the figures notices him. He looks at Cory, his crimson-coated bat suspended mid-swing. Their eyes meet. They freeze.
=====The second figure turns. “Come on, we gotta get the fuck outta here!”
=====The first figure remains still for a second or two, his gaze still pointed towards Cory. “Listen, don’t tell nobody nothin’ about this Cory,” he yells, his voice just barely wavering, “you do…I swear I’ll fucking kill you. You hear me?”
=====Cory remains silent, his mouth dry; he can’t open it to say anything.
=====“You hear me?!”
=====“Damon!” the other one screams.
=====“Shut the fuck up, I’m coming man!” Damon shouts back, and the two run off around the corner and out of sight.
=====Cory remains still for a few seconds, unable to move, unable to tear his stare from where his brother had stood a moment before and the three bodies. They writhe around on the ground, moaning in pain, holding varies body parts. One is crying as he holds a shattered kneecap. Finally, Cory takes his eyes away from the corner. He runs all the way home, his eyes darting around. His hand searches his pocket for his key as he goes up three worn wooden steps to his front door. He rams the key into the hole, turns it quickly, and bolts inside. The door slams shut behind him, and he locks it. He walks the last dozen feet to the couch and collapses onto it, panting for breath.
=====Cory stares at the black of the TV screen, unblinking for a while, until he finally thinks to turn the TV on. He starts to search the ground around the couch with his hand for the remote, when he hears the sound of a key rattling in the door. Must be Damon, he thinks. The door creaks open, and he can hear footsteps coming towards him.
=====“Cory, Damon, where’ve you guys gone off too?” Cory can hear his mother’s voice say from the kitchen. That’s odd, he thinks, she’s normally not home until at least two or three hours after he does, and it can’t have been more than a half an hour at most. He glances down at his black watch: 6:17, its been three hours.
=====“I’m in here mom!” Cory yells.
=====His mom walks into the room, and pauses in the doorway, one hand on the doorframe. “What are you up to?” she asks.
=====“Just about to watch some TV”
=====“Was school good?”
=====“Yeah, it was fine.”
=====“That’s good honey. I’m gonna go make us some dinner.” She takes her hand of the doorframe and turns to leave the room, but pauses to ask, “You know where Damon is?”
=====Cory pauses for a minute, the image of Damon standing there with the blood-stained bat in his hand flashes through his head. Don’t tell nobody. “No, I don’t, he’s probably just off with some friends and forgot what time it is or something.”
=====“That boy better be back soon is all I have to say” Cory’s mom says, and walks off into the kitchen. He can hear her turn on the stove and hears some pots rattling. He picks the remote off the floor and turns the TV on.
=====Cory’s mom is still in the kitchen, and the credits are rolling for the show Cory had been watching when the door creaks open again.
=====“Damon, that you?” His mom shouts from the kitchen.
=====“Yeah.” He says.
=====“Where you been at?”
=====“Just hanging out with some friends, sorry I’m late, none of us had no watches.”
=====“It’s okay this time Damon, dinner still ain’t ready. But you better not make this a habit, you hear me?”
=====“Yeah, I hear you.” He says, and goes up the stairs to his room. About a half hour later Cory hears his mom calling them for dinner. He turns the TV off and walks into the kitchen, his mom’s just putting the dinner out on the table. Damon comes down from his rooms a few seconds later and sits next to Cory in his chair.
=====“So, how was your day Damon?” their mom asks as she sits down.
=====“Good.” He says, popping open a can of coke and taking a sip.
=====“Any tests or anything?”
=====“Nah.” He takes another sip. “Or, yeah, just one in math.”
=====“How’d it go?”
=====“I don’t really wanna talk about it,” he says, his eyes fall to his plate.
=====“Not again boy, I told you you gotta start working harder again.”
=====“I know.”
=====“What’s been happenin’ with you Damon, you always used to do so well in school?”
=====“Look, can we just not talk about this right now?” His eyes remain stuck to his plate. A minute goes by with the sound of forks and knives on plates, of mouths chewing.
=====“How was your day Cory?”
=====“It was fine.”
=====“That’s good.”
=====“Hey mom, can I be excused?” Damon asks.
=====“But you haven’t eaten half the food on your plate.”
=====“I ain’t too hungry.”
=====She pauses. “Fine, go ahead.”
=====“Thanks,” he says, and puts his plate next to the sink before leaving.
=====Cory keeps looking down at his plate, his fork’s in his hand but he hasn’t eaten a bite in a few minutes. “Hey mom, I’m not hungry either. Can I be excused too?”
=====She sighs. “Yeah, fine, go ahead Cory.”
=====“Thanks.” He brings his plate to the sink and walks to the door. “I’m really tired, I think I’m gonna go to bed.”
=====“But its only—“ his mom pauses in mid sentence to look at the clock on the counter next to the sink, “—8:07.”
=====“Yeah, I know, just tired though.” He walks out and up the stairs to his room. He goes on his tiptoes down the hallway past Damon’s room. When he gets into his room he flips the lights switch off, gets in his bed, and pulls the blanket around himself. After trying for a while, he finally manages to get to sleep.
=====Cory is suddenly jerked awake by the sound of his door opening slowly. A hooded form walks up to his bed, in the dark he can’t see who it is. “Do you remember what I told you Cory?” he can hear the figure say. It’s Damon; he can tell from his voice.
=====“What’re you talking about?” Cory asks him.
=====“Do you remember what I fucking told you?” Damon hisses, and grabs Cory by his left shoulder.
=====“I….I…” Cory stutters. He tries to pull back from Damon’s grip, but his hand tightens around Cory’s shoulder. It hurts, his nails are digging into it.
=====“I told you not to tell nobody what you saw you little shit!” Damon’s yelling now.
=====“I didn’t!” Cory says, he’s shaking. “I didn’t tell nobody, I swear Damon!”
=====“Oh yeah?” Damon asks, and Cory can see his hand reach into his sweatshirt pocket. It comes back out; a gun’s in it.
=====“I didn’t tell, I swear, please, I didn’t! I didn’t!” Cory screams, he’s flailing around, trying to escape Damon’s grip.
=====Damon holds the cold barrel of the gun to Cory’s sweat-soaked head. “I told you not to tell, just one damn thing. I told you I’d kill you.”
=====“Damon, please!” Cory pleads.
=====“Damn fool,” Damon says, and he pulls the trigger.
=====Cory jerks awake in his bed. His pajamas are soaked in sweat; he’s shaking and he can feel his heart beating in every part of his body. His eyes dart around the room—it’s empty. He feels his head where the gun had been, there’s no hole. He takes a deep breath, then another, and with one last look around the room, he lies back down. He turns onto his side, away from the doorway, and curls up, pulling the blankets over his head. After a few minutes, he hears a knock at the door. His muscles tense up and he buries his head in the pillow and blankets.
=====“Cory, can I come in?” he can hear Damon say from outside.
Cory curls up tighter into a ball. The door creaks open, and Damon walks in, closing it just as quietly behind himself.
=====“Cory…you know what I said earlier today?”
=====Cory remains still, maybe if Damon doesn’t know he’s awake he’ll go away.
=====“Well…I just wanted to say…I’m sorry.”
=====Cory rolls over to face Damon, pulling the blankets from over his head.
=====“I shouldn’t’ve said none of that. I didn’t mean it, I was just scared. I’d never do nothin’ like that that to you. We brothers. You know that, right Cory?”
=====“Yeah, course we are.” Cory pauses for a few seconds. “You know, I miss those walks home from school we used to have.”
=====Damon pauses. “Yeah,” he says, his eyes fall to the ground, “Me too Cory.”
=====“Then why don’t you walk home with me no more?”
=====“You know it’s not that easy.”
=====“Why not?”
=====“Cause it’s not. You know mom’s been having a hard time paying for everything. I gotta help.”
=====Cory pauses for a second. “You mean she knows about it?”
=====“No, no, course she doesn’t. Most the time I slip it in her purse when she asleep, she doesn’t notice.”
=====“But why can’t you just work after school or something, why you have to be involved with…”
=====“You know it doesn’t work like that Cory. This here’s easy money, sometimes I don’t feel right about it, but I can’t just sit here watching mom worry about us all the time. It’s not forever, just for a bit.”
=====“That’s what everyone says.”
=====“I’m not like the others. This isn’t my world. You know that Cory.”
=====“Yeah, but Damon, today—“
=====“You didn’t see what you think you did.”
=====“Then what did I see?”
=====“Look Cory…nevermind, you wouldn’t understand.”
=====“Why?”
=====“You just wouldn’t. Listen, I gotta go, but…I just wanted to say sorry for what I said. Sorry for how I’ve been. For it all. Just…sorry.”
=====“Are you gonna stop?”
=====Damon pauses, his voice is soft when he finally speaks again. “No.”
=====“Damon—“
=====“—Look, I gotta get to sleep.” His voice is frail, Cory’s never heard him talk like this. He thinks he can see Damon wiping his eyes off with his arm in the dark.
=====“G’night.”
=====“Night.”
=====Damon leaves the room just as quietly as he entered, and Cory can hear the faint sound of his footsteps down the hall and his door closing. Cory stays where he was, propped up on one elbow on his bed, his blankets still wrapped around his body. He lies back down and rolls over onto his side. But he knows he won’t sleep tonight. Somehow he doubts Damon will either.